The Voice
It rules. It dictates. And most of all, it unnerves me, that whenever I hear it, it has the power to ruin my whole day. I tried to cover my ears, shut my world from it by trying to drown myself in some kind of unusual destruction, yet it seemed to penetrate my whole being and I felt that it is slowly destroying anyone’s esteem. It surely frightens my kids and funny how I tried to threat them with this voice in times when I think I just can’t control the kids and amazingly it works with them. They will cower and flinch and behave, and I become guilty of it. But it does work.
Am I sinning? For I felt that I shouldn’t talk against it, but it is injuring me and it has turned me into something not totatally me and I am afraid that I am losing my respect, something I have tried to avoid for years now. But it has gone into its limit that I feel that I could no longer stand it. I am gradually losing my sanity and I wanted to go back to my sanctuary, where I am safe, where I am free, where I can simply be me.
I want to run away from the voice. I may endure, but I swear I wouldn’t hear it for a longer period of time…in the future.
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